I am reminded of Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 where it talks about there being a season for everything. Verse 7 says there is a time to speak and a time to be silent. I don't think that I really have realized this little truth until lately.
Lately I feel like the Lord has had me in a season silence. Most would say, Morgan you are quiet enough and others would say well it's about time:). I was working through some things, preparing for a new year of school, searching my heart on some matters, and it was quite a lonely time. Friendships were distant, mostly just life getting in the way, and I would sit at the end of the day simply needing someone to hear me out, listen to the burdens of my heart. But God took that a way for a time. I was not pleased to say the least, but of course looking back, I am so thankful! In fact, I would wake up the next morning so thankful that I didn't subject some sweet friend to all of that :). But more than that I am thankful because the Lord was showing me how I needed to bring my burdens to Him first and foremost and how much I was seeking comfort and answers from the wrong places. Don't get me wrong...I am the first to say how important friends are and how blessed I am with precious friends, Godly friends and that it is wonderful to be able to share the depths of your heart with them! God gives us one another for that purpose, to share life together. But I need to bare my heart to the Lord first and then allow Him to show me what I can share with those He has blessed me with.
Another way I have seen the Lord call me to make sure I am speaking when I should and remaining quiet when I should is in ministry. Looking back I too often see times when I spoke just to break the awkward silence in a Bible study, not really speaking from the heart, but simply trying to help the Bible study leader not feel like a failure. Lately I have realized how much time I need to really gather my thoughts on things. I need like a day. So if you really want to hear how I actually feel about something deep on a matter of the heart and not just the first thought I have that I spout out (most likely from nerves), Lay it out there for me and then let's go have a coffee date:) Ok so the point is , I just want my words to count, I want to choose them carefully, I want them to be a reflection of my heart. Not to mention I want them to make sense, catch me off guard and there's no telling what kind of non-sense you are going to have to sort through;)
Remember once the words are said you can't take them back.
