I am carried to the table, seated where I don't belong...

Sometimes I find that all I can see is an overwhelming amount of imperfections that I can't seem to get past, and I live in the guilt and shame and weight of them all. Satan in his scheming and sneaky ways loves to magnify these imperfections so that we become consumed by the fact that we are not worthy of the love and forgiveness of Christ, and the picture he creates of all of our dirt and muck is all we can see. Sometimes I struggle to see past my dirty, mucky picture of myself to see my Savior with His arms reaching out drawing me to Himself. And then the Father in all His grace and love and mercy sends little reminders through songs to remind me that I am a new creation! I am quickly learning that if I don't start living in the freedom of Christ, then it is me saying what Christ did on the cross is not good enough. "Christ did not come to condemn the world but to save it." Jn3:17 Save it from the bondage of sin. There are two songs that God has sent my way to remind me that yes, I am absolutely, completely unworthy and NEVER will I be able to attain such worth, but His Son died and shed His blood so that I could be made holy, new, beautiful, royal, and free all through Christ and in Christ alone! Words have been hard for me to come by lately, which isn't completely new but even worse here lately, so I am going to just share some of the music that has been quite eye opening these past couple of days...

"Carried to the Table"

By: Leeland

Wounded and forsaken
I was shattered by the fall
Broken and forgotten
Feeling lost and all alone
Summoned by the King
Into the Master’s courts
Lifted by the Savior
And cradled in His arms

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His Holy presence
I’m healed and unashamed

"I Am New" By: Jason Gray

Forgiven beloved

Hidden in Christ
Made in the image of the Giver of Life
Righteous and holy
Reborn and remade
Accepted and worthy this is our new name

and today in class...

Journal:

Today I will serve God by...

Student's response:

I will help God write the Bible.

As we lined up for lunch, one little girl was not standing in line correctly. So I told her to come stand by me. Usually this just means they are to follow me instead of getting to walk in line with their friends. Unfortunately I just assumed that this student understood that. So, I am at the kitchen window, passing out lunches, and my students come up to me "Miss Davis _____ is still in the room." And of course my immediate response is "Well what are they doing up there?" Then the poor girl walks down in tears "You just left me up there. You said stay here, and then you forgot about me." AHH the one time she actually does what I tell her to the 1st time. Not to mention I never said stay here.

My sweet 2nd graders never cease to amaze me:)