Moses

Every time I think about the place God has brought me to in ministry these past few months, I become incredibly humbled but also overwhelmed! Overwhelmed to the point of being paralyzed and afraid and wanting to run fast...very fast!

I will be the first to tell you that I am completely unqualified for most any job that is put before me, or I will at least give a disclaimer before accepting the task at hand. I tend to put a lot of focus on what I am unable to do; on my many weaknesses. It's not something I lay out for all to see, but it's more of an internal struggle. I believe this can be a good thing, to recognize your weaknesses, but for me, it can be quite paralyzing, especially in way of ministry. Probably because there is no other place that I desire to be more successful than in ministry! I want to bring praise and glory to that most precious name!

I find it a bit ironic here lately that my nickname is Moses. Don't get me wrong I love my nickname (each and everyone Maci and Lanie;), and I have been given many sweet nicknames. But anyways, I can definitely relate to dear old Moses. I have the hardest time with words and clearly communicating a point. I will have a thought/idea clearly thought out in my mind and somehow in the short trip that that thought takes from my brain to my mouth, words manage to get lost, mumbled, and jumbled. It's quite baffling to me my struggle with communicating thoughts clearly!

So like Moses, I have given God the heads up on more than one occasion that I am probably not the best candidate for the job He has set out before me. I have given him options of those who would be much more qualified!

But thankfully God doesn't give up that easily! Thankfully He sees what we can do and what we can be through Him! Praise God that He uses my weaknesses for His glory. He uses me in my weakness so that He is seen and not me!

I think it is good to recognize weaknesses but not to allow them to paralyze you. Satan would love nothing more, and I refuse to give Satan any pleasure!

So I will be reminded of Moses and how God didn't give up on him. How he was available and willing in his weakness to step out on faith. I will believe that God will do BIG things through my weaknesses.

Dreaming

I have been feeling quite dreamy lately. At times I feel a bit overwhelmed when I take the time to dream. Maybe overwhelmed isn't the best word choice. Maybe discouraged would be better.

When I sit around with friends and we dream and plan things we will to do together, I get so excited! And so I guess with all the things we talk about doing but never actually do, I find myself disappointed in dreaming.

I also think that sometimes dreaming can reach an unhealthy place. I can't really put this into

words right now, but I will work on that.

But I definitely think if done in a "healthy" way (again I can't really put words to it right now), then it is a fun and exciting thing! It gives you something to work towards, goals to accomplish, experiences to look forward to, and life to live and share with your loved ones!

So here are a few of my dreams that have come of late. These aren't life dreams, like the serious kind, but the fun, adventurous kind.

I would love to go rock climbing. Unfortunately, I will never look like this on a rock, and

I never have had great upper body strength. I probably need to drive to the top and repel down, which would probably be more fun anyways! :).

A little factoid about myself, I am incredibly scared of the ocean! So if we can get rid of the sharks and jellyfish, I would love to learn to surf. And yes I would obviously look just like the picture!

I also love a good road trip! I think it would be so fun to go on a big road trip across the country with no real schedule and seeing all the must see sights in the USA. Gas prices need to drop MAJOR!

Disney marathon. All my students are always going on vacations to Disney, which has made me randomly want to go to Disney. Since I enjoy a good run every now and then, I think this one sounds like a lot of fun!

Go to a spa for a weekend and go to a quaint little bed and breakfast in a sweet small town. Separate trips of course.

Go to Italy, Greece, or France. I would really want to go to the countryside or seaside, those hidden treasures that aren't so touristy. I am not a huge fan of touristy things. I would prefer to really enjoy the culture of the place I am visiting.

Anyways those are a few fun dreams of mine. Sure they all cost loads of money, but who knows where life will take me. Plus I won't be disappointed if these dreams don't come true; these are just some fun ones to think about;).