Moses

Every time I think about the place God has brought me to in ministry these past few months, I become incredibly humbled but also overwhelmed! Overwhelmed to the point of being paralyzed and afraid and wanting to run fast...very fast!

I will be the first to tell you that I am completely unqualified for most any job that is put before me, or I will at least give a disclaimer before accepting the task at hand. I tend to put a lot of focus on what I am unable to do; on my many weaknesses. It's not something I lay out for all to see, but it's more of an internal struggle. I believe this can be a good thing, to recognize your weaknesses, but for me, it can be quite paralyzing, especially in way of ministry. Probably because there is no other place that I desire to be more successful than in ministry! I want to bring praise and glory to that most precious name!

I find it a bit ironic here lately that my nickname is Moses. Don't get me wrong I love my nickname (each and everyone Maci and Lanie;), and I have been given many sweet nicknames. But anyways, I can definitely relate to dear old Moses. I have the hardest time with words and clearly communicating a point. I will have a thought/idea clearly thought out in my mind and somehow in the short trip that that thought takes from my brain to my mouth, words manage to get lost, mumbled, and jumbled. It's quite baffling to me my struggle with communicating thoughts clearly!

So like Moses, I have given God the heads up on more than one occasion that I am probably not the best candidate for the job He has set out before me. I have given him options of those who would be much more qualified!

But thankfully God doesn't give up that easily! Thankfully He sees what we can do and what we can be through Him! Praise God that He uses my weaknesses for His glory. He uses me in my weakness so that He is seen and not me!

I think it is good to recognize weaknesses but not to allow them to paralyze you. Satan would love nothing more, and I refuse to give Satan any pleasure!

So I will be reminded of Moses and how God didn't give up on him. How he was available and willing in his weakness to step out on faith. I will believe that God will do BIG things through my weaknesses.